Letters To My Little One | One Month Old

Letters To My Little One | One Month Old

tuesday, may 24, 2016

hello my love!

if there is one thing you will learn about life, it’s that it’s unpredictable.  and i will always remember every detail about the day you were born, even though i couldn’t predict a single moment of it.  on the day you were born, i enjoyed a quiet and relaxing morning.  instead of getting up and getting ready right away, i took my time and went about my morning a little lazily.  i watched a couple of my favorite shows in my pajamas, i talked to your grandparents on the phone just because, and enjoyed just taking a little time to myself.

slowly i got ready for the day, with my only plans being…even more relaxation.  i was 2 days away from our schedule c section with you, and planned to have a relaxing week of nesting and taking time for myself.  on that day’s agenda, enjoy a manicure and pedicure at my favorite salon.  after getting one foot painted blue and one foot painted pink (because we didn’t know your gender!), i drove home to enjoy a lunch of grilled chicken and apples.  i called your daddy on the way home, telling him how much i enjoyed my relaxing spa morning and was looking forward to having an afternoon nap.

looking back on it, everything changed so quickly.  one moment i was getting ready to lay down on the couch for a little snooze, and the next moment i am jumping right back up because you were on your way!  i will never be able to describe my feelings in that moment.  instead of being nervous or scared, i felt so incredibly relieved and excited.  i called your daddy right away to tell him to come home quick, then waddled around the house, excitedly packing up the last few hospital items and buttoning up the house…all the while being trailed by two very curious puppies.

even though your daddy arrived home quick, i was so excited to head to the hospital that i packed up the car and was found sitting in the passenger seat in the driveway when he came home.  we both gave one another excited waves and from the moment he hopped in the car we held hands until we arrived at the hospital.  before i could even think, we were in the room where we met you for the first time and daddy announced to me “it’s a girl!”

our lives were forever changed.  from your very first cry, i cried tears of my own.  i have wanted you from the moment i met your daddy and you have brought everything i ever dreamed into my life.  from the moment i first held you, i knew we would be the best of friends.  it was like i was looking right at myself and i cried when you i first saw your eyes because they are the exact same color as your daddy’s.  while i remember every single moment of the day you were born, at the same time it is a blur because all i saw was you.

our first days in the hospital with you will be the days that i cherish forever.  it was just the three of us and everything that i ever imagined it would be.  in our first hours as a family of three, we made some of the sweetest memories.  getting to know you as each hour passed, we fell even more in love with you and everything felt simply perfect and natural.  it was as if we had always been a family of three, instead of only being one for a few hours.  it just felt so right to be your parents and seemed like everything happened the way it should have.  those first days as a family of three in the hospital were full of happy tears, laughter, loving looks, and bliss.  i will always remember looking at your daddy and simply thanking him for giving me you.

you have grown so much already in your first month and i am amazed every day at how much you change.  during your first month of life, you are already so strong.  even the nurses in the hospital commented on your amazing strength, as you lifted your head right away and clung your hands to our fingers with a mighty grip.  and not only are you so very strong, but you are so curious.  not only do you look around in amazement, but you look around in wonderment.  i wish i could know what you are thinking, as your expressions are just priceless.

our favorite thing that you do is smile in your sleep.  from the day you were born, you smiled in your sleep.  your great grandmother says that means you are talking to the angels and i know this to be true because you have some of the very best guardian angels watching over you.  you also love to clasp your hands together and it looks like you are praying.  it is the sweetest thing and i had to photograph it so i could remember it for always.

you are just like mommy in that you have quite the appetite and when you want to eat, you want to eat now!  you are starting to sleep more and more through the night, and even though i like my sleep too, i find that i miss you so much when you sleep.  when you finally stir and give out a little squeak, i can’t wait to kiss your sweet little cheeks and cuddle you close again.  watching you fall asleep in my arms is one of my favorite things.  i find myself simply staring at you, wondering what you will be when you grow up and what will make you the happiest.

daddy has become the expert diaper changer at our house and he also swaddles like a pro.  watching him become your daddy has been the single highlight of my entire life, as he just assumed the roll perfectly and loves you like crazy!  he calls us “his girls” and takes such amazing care of us.  he always tells you what he wants to teach you as you grow up and just listening to how excited he is about your life warms my heart.  he has been anticipating your first smile so much that you went ahead and gave it to him when you were 5 weeks 4 days old.  it was a quick little smile, but we both squealed in delight and are eagerly awaiting your next sweet grin.

your first month has been beautiful and everything we wanted it to be.  the only thing that overwhelms me is watching just how fast you are growing already.  even though the nights were sleepless in the beginning, it seems as if your first weeks disappeared in a blink of an eye and i am begging for them back.  every morning that we wake, you are completely different.  i am stuck feeling so excited to see you grow, yet wishing time would slow down so i could savor the moments even more.  maybe that is why i sometimes just sit and stare at you, willing the clock to stop for just a moment so i can savor your every detail so i will never forget.

of all the things we want you to know about your first days with us, know that you make us the happiest.  you are the perfect daughter and we love you more than life.  we grin over your little baby squeaks and gush over your perfect blonde locks.  we laugh at your expressions and savor your sweet baby smell.  we stare at you in amazement and we dream big dreams for you.  you are our greatest blessing, our greatest adventure, and our greatest achievement.  get ready, sweet baby…this life of yours is going to be everything you ever dreamed it would be.

i love you forever.

love, mommy

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